random ramblings in my head...

oh bloggy blog...

as life goes on, you tend to get busy, occupying your time with other time wasting activities... haahaa, ok perhaps not wasting, sometimes constructive, or just things that you want to do over little things that you would like to do, but you know would just consume more of your time.

its funny... when i was living with my family, i had more time... more "free" time. maybe because my mum cooked for me, and cleaned and stuff... which now, i have to do for myself. so then, there is no "free" time... and like everyone, when you work full time, and go home, you just dont feel like doing much else, because you're just tired, you have to think of what to have for dinner, what do i have to prepare for tomorrow, what about ironing, cleaning, or should i do some exercise? i dunno, clutters of thought and things...

things that life is about.

but then, life isnt just blantly about these things, that just seem like a boring life. life is what you make it out to be, and i suppose, at this moment in my life... i do as i please, perhaps i maybe preferring to do other things, but then sometimes, i just get lazy...

argh

lazy is bad...

but yah, blogging is one thing. i just dont upkeep it well... not anymore... which isnt too good... coz i like to just blog about random stuff, its a release, release of the random thought in my head and i somehow can get it down and spelt out...

its funny how life is... sometimes you just have to enjoy the now, stop the bickering, stop the rushing and stressing, take a moment to chill and absorb...

thoughts are funny things....
topic.... future, aka marriage and kiddies...

there are friends in my life who are getting hitched.... and then today i saw on of the admin staff, she recently got engaged (i was overhearing a conversation, and of course the obvious shiny rock on her finger).... and its like, does that mean i want to get married?

sure i want to get married, but definitely not now. pffft! crazy...

but yeah, its just like weird, because that is life, around that kinda age and you know, its just how things kinda go... and then theres the baby aspect. one of ed's friend's, they're expecting. a uni friend who's in china, she just gave birth the a baby girl. then i was watching this tv show, some doco on some massive research in aus on what kinda of environment that our children can get the best chance out of life, or something. anyway, the babies, toddlers in the show, they were SOOOoo cute!!!

but to me, marriage ties in with babies... and noooo way am i ready for kiddies!!! sure i see babies, and i want to have one! but then, its just the planning about it, kiddies cost alot!!! and energy and committment and everything. you basically give up your life to raise another, its quite extraordinary... but yah, kiddies... naaaah, not just yet, although it would be ideal in a sense that, if i had a baby now, when i'm 50, they'll be 27! how good does that sound? my aunt... she's... 40 i think, and she's actually expecting! i was telling a friend about this, and she was like, omg, when she's 60 her kid is going to be 20! whoa....

that kinda opened my eyes a bit....

like its good young, but then, younger is kinda harder, the struggles of finance, time, and just being young, you want to do a bit more in your life, just to experience things, before you have a baby! of course its not saying that if you have a baby you wouldnt be able to do all those things, although u'd be either wonder woman or have heaps of money to juggle things..... i guess its more of a female perspective....
guys dont have to worry abt being too old to have babies... guys arent the ones giving up their time to care for the baby/child... and today's society, its a two income family thing....

i dunno... makes you think a lil....

but i guess, i dont clutter my thoughts too much about it...

all i know is that, for me, as long as im younger than 30, thats when i'd want to get hitched! hehehe, only for the appearance aspect :p how vain of me!!! hehehe

i just want to win the lotto... hehehe....

oh dear...

and its already october.... yaaaaaay *saarrcasm*

i dont like thinking abt my bday..... its a bit of an annoyance... i get hyped up, coz its like YAAH i'll invited everyone and catch up! but then theres the down side of when some people who i'd like to see cant make it... its kind of sad, but then understanding, because, well, everyone has their own life to lead... i know it sounds selfish, but then you know, its your bday, u just want things to go the way you plan.... but then again, thats life, shit happens, you just deal with it...

so i wasnt sure what i wanted to do.... perhaps just a bar thing.... i dunno, low key.... just an excuse to dress up really....

then i thought, naaah, maybe i wont celebrate.... i really cant be bothered.... but then, i would like to be bothered, just because i can kinda thing... i dunno....

i havent really done that much socialising.... and well, its kinda hard especially when you get busy, then there are times when you just want to bum and do your own thing.... *sigh* i dunno... i dont really know what i want....

anyway this is just jibberjabber.....